It’s Almost Fall

That feeling we sometimes get when we’re sick to the point of wanting to pass out…? Yes, that’s precisely how I feel right now. What is wrong? I have not a clue. I just know I’ve felt dizzy, shaky, and not like myself. I took extra B12 early this morning and then passed out like a log. That was good, until someone in a fur coat decided that it was time for me to get up. Why? So SHE could go hide out somewhere and take a nap. The rules around here are fucked up, to say the very least.

That pre-Fall weather when you start to feel the time change in advance is generally when my body starts demanding extra sleep. I often joke that I hibernate all Winter, but that’s not entirely the truth, it’s simply how I feel physically. I was in bed so early last night that when I woke up, the moon still hadn’t risen. And, it is FREEZING. The days are in the 70’s, but at night you just want to wrap yourself in something warm and stay put, or at least I do.

I have no real evidence that I have a late summer cold or anything else that would require a doctor’s visit, so I am going to keep taking vitamins, drink some hot tea, and see how I feel then. As I begin to prep for Rosh Hashanah and Mabon, I hope I am well enough to cook, but I am NOT going to beat myself up over it if I need extra rest and fluids. If I don’t take care of me, who the hell will?!

If you don’t hear from me, send soup.

Rosh Hashanah 2013

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For those who maybe haven’t picked up on it yet, I am Jewish. 100% through and through because, even though I disagree with varying viewpoints at times, I believe in a spiritual deity, and it’s drastically different from the church and its teachings.

I am not posting this in an attempt to convert anyone, because that’s not my deal at all, but I am posting it to share and explain.

In late 2002, while studying Psychology & Comparative Religion, I stumbled upon Wicca as a 2nd “faith”, if you will. Growing up with Kabbalistic Judaism, which is Jewish Mysticism for those of you who only hear Kabbalah and think of Madonna or Demi Moore, Wicca sort of brought it all home for me. It made sense out of all the things I’d been raised to believe and it made sense for my every day life. It brought me to a peaceful, calmer, happier place. A place I really needed to be considering how difficult my life had been up until that point.

Obviously there are differences between the two religions. You have a monotheist belief system, but because I grew up believing in duality of God and Goddess, Wicca, as a polytheist belief system, makes sense to me even within the confines of Judaism. I see them as being incredibly intertwined most of the time.

To be clear, I don’t practice either faith for shock value or to attract attention. I do it because it’s my spiritual path and it’s part of what makes me who I am. I’m spiritual as opposed to religious, but I have members of my family that are Ultra Orthodox and barely acknowledge my existence because I’m not “Jewish enough” for them and their way of life. We pretty much all grew up Reformed, yet they are now somehow superior to the rest of us. You can’t help, but roll your eyes. I respect their faith, but they can’t respect mine. It’s a good thing they haven’t seen my tattoos, they’d probably drop dead and spit.

My wish for this New Year is for my family & friends all over the world to have a better, happier, stronger, more secure year than the one we are leaving behind. Less struggle, more happiness. Less pain, more days where we can feel like we’re truly part of the bigger picture. More healing, less torment. More listening, less ignoring. More compassion, less negativity.

To my Rabbi, thank you for being there for me over these past six years. It has made such an immense difference having you be a voice of reason. To Shani (my sister from another mister) in Israel, I love you and I’m thinking of you.

For those of you who do not celebrate this holiday, my wishes for you remain the same.L’Shanah Tovah!

 

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