“You will find that it is necessary to let things go; simply for the reason that they are heavy. So let them go, let go of them. I tie no weights to my ankles.” – C. JoyBell C.
Coming To A Close…
This year is coming to a close and I, for one, am happy to see it go. It has been a difficult, heartbreaking, soul-sucking year for me in many respects, and in other respects this year has given me back pieces of myself I did not realize were missing.
Sometimes you have people in your life that believe they are completely irreplaceable, and sometimes you almost believe that too. Then they feel confident enough to walk away from you, in one respect or another, without explanation, and even though you know they will be back, you’ve reached a point where you simply want closure, but you no longer give a rat’s ass if they’re present or not. You’ve lost the ability to give a fuck. In turn, you lose the ability to place any value on the friendship or relationship. That’s growth, and it’s ok.
I started 2013 with a Tortoiseshell on my lap who had been in my life since she fit in one hand. I lost her after 17 ½ years, and I mourn her loss every single day. I’m closing this year out with a completely different “cat on my lap”, only she’s still “brand new”, so to speak. She is not the Alpha that my beloved familiar was, but she’s still a really good, sweet little monkey. A British Bombay, so I’m told. Her purrs help keep me sane.
My thanks goes out to all of my readers, for helping to renew the confidence in my abilities. I get such awesome feedback and support here, and it makes me smile at least once a day. That’s HUGE, and I’m incredibly grateful to be among all of you.
Britt, Dawn, & Lillian for being awesome support both on and off this blog. I am SO lucky to have found and connected with each of you. You are truly fabulous individuals.
To those that have been with me for what seems like a lifetime, especially those that know my original nickname is Miss Poison: You mean the world to me.
Riley- These past two years have shown me a lot. Thank you for the plane tickets. You’re right. There, I said it, now get over yourself.
M- You remain the world’s biggest pain in the ass. I know things are going to get better, even if I have to MAKE them so.
Marion- I am always here for you and always loyal to you. XO.
Shani- You’re my sister from another mister and I adore you. I am REALLY looking forward to our adventures in Israel! 🙂
Stef- You go the extra mile, both literally and figuratively.
To everyone that showed me so much support after I lost my familiar in January, THANK YOU. I appreciate all the love you have sent my way since I adopted V, and yes, I think I’ll let her blog in my place again the next time I’m having an off day. LOL.
Google Search, Bing, and Yahoo, you have been AMAZING to me this past year.
This year has taught me a lot about myself, whether I have wanted to admit that or not. It’s also taught me that I am ready to move on. Looking forward to the bright new things 2014 has in store for me, of which I hope will mainly be positive.
A Happy & Safe New Year to everyone!
There Is No Such Thing…
“There is no such thing as a “broken family.” Family is family, and is not determined by marriage certificates, divorce papers, and adoption documents. Families are made in the heart. The only time family becomes null is when those ties in the heart are cut. If you cut those ties, those people are not your family. If you make those ties, those people are your family. And if you hate those ties, those people will still be your family because whatever you hate will always be with you.” ―C. JoyBell C.
*I don’t necessarily agree with this in its entirety. I do, however, find it to be an interesting quote.*
Rolling In The Deep