It’s So Hard……

It’s So Hard…

“Its so hard to talk when you want to kill yourself. That’s above and beyond everything else, and it’s not a mental complaint-it’s a physical thing, like it’s physically hard to open your mouth and make the words come out. They don’t come out smooth and in conjunction with your brain the way normal people’s words do; they come out in chunks as if from a crushed-ice dispenser; you stumble on them as they gather behind your lower lip. So you just keep quiet.” ―Ned Vizzini

Growing Compassion for Bipolar Disorder

Gwen Tuinman

header shot Anyone whose had a cold will tell you it’s uncomfortable. There’s a headachy feeling that renders us pale and listless. It comes on the heels of sleepless-can’t-breathe nights that leave our eyes ringed in shadows.

The thing about having a cold, is that everyone understands what ails us. We usually garner some degree of sympathy from those around us. Folks understand that the coughing, sneezing, and snuffling are symptoms. We don’t worry that people will find out we’ve gone to the doctor for help when the cold gets the better of us.

What if we changed the wording in the previous paragraph? Suppose that cold turned to bipolar disorder. Imagine that coughing, sneezing, and snuffling became mood swings, altered judgment, and puzzling behavior. What if we could change the words and the paragraphs still rang true?

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Demi Lovato: ‘If people really knew how dark my struggles got…’

This is such an honest interview about her struggles. How many artists openly admit to being bipolar, eating disorders, and self-harm? Very few. She HAS been honest all the way through, unlike so many others, so whether you love her or hate her, you’ve got to have some respect for what she’s been through on a public sphere. I think she’s a beautiful girl, I’ve always thought so, and I think her message of staying strong is important for everyone suffering from any form of depression or pain of any kind.

Be your own best advocate and even when the going gets tough, don’t back down!!

 

Vitamin D & Bipolar Disorder

Vitamin D & Bipolar Disorder

http://bphope.com/bphopeblog/post/Vitamin-D-and-Bipolar.aspx

As many of you know, I am 100% anti-sun. Not only do I hate it with every fiber of my being, but it’s just too damn bright for someone with extreme photosensitivity. Every single day one of the first things that goes on my face and neck is Josie Maran Argan Daily Moisturizer with Broad Spectrum SPF 40. During the summer when the sun is even more intense and I will be outdoors for more than an hour, I use the first product over this one: BareMinerals Advanced Protection SPF 20 Moisturizer, just to be on the safe side. I use an SPF 50 spray sunscreen on all other skin that will be exposed and I put sunscreen in my hair as well, which protects the color and also protects the delicate skin we often forget about. I can’t forget, because I’ve had two horrible sunburns on my scalp in the past, which were extremely painful and lengthy in terms of the healing process. I protect my eyes with dark sunglasses that have UVA/UVB protection in the lenses.

I eat a balanced diet. I know I get vitamin D from the foods I eat, but I also know I am Vitamin D deficient despite all the precautionary measures I’ve taken for years and years. I take Citracal Petites a few times a week, or daily when I can remember. As women, we stop building bone after age 35, so the calcium is crucial to our future health. After age 36 we can continue to build muscle to protect our bones, but I know far too many people who ended up with osteoporosis really young, so I’m not willing to take the risk. As for the Vitamin D, I’ll stick with supplementing it, as opposed to destroying my skin.

Anyone else experience Vitamin D deficiency?

Physical Eviden…

Physical Evidence

“Sometimes,” says a fellow depressive, “I wish I was in a full body cast, with every bone in my body broken. That’s how I feel anyway. Then, maybe, people would stop minimizing my illness because they can actually see what’s wrong with me. They seem to need physical evidence.” ―Sally Brampton