Coming To A Close…
This year is coming to a close and I, for one, am happy to see it go. It has been a difficult, heartbreaking, soul-sucking year for me in many respects, and in other respects this year has given me back pieces of myself I did not realize were missing.
Sometimes you have people in your life that believe they are completely irreplaceable, and sometimes you almost believe that too. Then they feel confident enough to walk away from you, in one respect or another, without explanation, and even though you know they will be back, you’ve reached a point where you simply want closure, but you no longer give a rat’s ass if they’re present or not. You’ve lost the ability to give a fuck. In turn, you lose the ability to place any value on the friendship or relationship. That’s growth, and it’s ok.
I started 2013 with a Tortoiseshell on my lap who had been in my life since she fit in one hand. I lost her after 17 ½ years, and I mourn her loss every single day. I’m closing this year out with a completely different “cat on my lap”, only she’s still “brand new”, so to speak. She is not the Alpha that my beloved familiar was, but she’s still a really good, sweet little monkey. A British Bombay, so I’m told. Her purrs help keep me sane.
My thanks goes out to all of my readers, for helping to renew the confidence in my abilities. I get such awesome feedback and support here, and it makes me smile at least once a day. That’s HUGE, and I’m incredibly grateful to be among all of you.
Britt, Dawn, & Lillian for being awesome support both on and off this blog. I am SO lucky to have found and connected with each of you. You are truly fabulous individuals.
To those that have been with me for what seems like a lifetime, especially those that know my original nickname is Miss Poison: You mean the world to me.
Riley- These past two years have shown me a lot. Thank you for the plane tickets. You’re right. There, I said it, now get over yourself.
M- You remain the world’s biggest pain in the ass. I know things are going to get better, even if I have to MAKE them so.
Marion- I am always here for you and always loyal to you. XO.
Shani- You’re my sister from another mister and I adore you. I am REALLY looking forward to our adventures in Israel! 🙂
Stef- You go the extra mile, both literally and figuratively.
To everyone that showed me so much support after I lost my familiar in January, THANK YOU. I appreciate all the love you have sent my way since I adopted V, and yes, I think I’ll let her blog in my place again the next time I’m having an off day. LOL.
Google Search, Bing, and Yahoo, you have been AMAZING to me this past year.
This year has taught me a lot about myself, whether I have wanted to admit that or not. It’s also taught me that I am ready to move on. Looking forward to the bright new things 2014 has in store for me, of which I hope will mainly be positive.
A Happy & Safe New Year to everyone!
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Suit & Tie
Make Your Own Reusable Kitchen Wipes
I am definitely going to be doing this. I will try the Peppermint, but also another fragrance, like Sweet Orange, Lemongrass, or Sage. Either way, this is an awesome idea. This would work well in the bathroom too!
As We Stand There…
“As we stand there, it hits me how quickly everything changes – how life is like peering into a kaleidoscope, and just as you’re looking at a gorgeous pattern you think you’d maybe even like to keep around forever, the colors morph into something completely different, and there’s no getting back to that first pattern. No matter how much you’d like to see it again.” ―Holly Schindler
You know how some people think this time of year is insanely cold? They would be right, especially if they wake up after three and a half hours of sleep wondering WHY it’s so damn cold (I put the heat on 67 before going to bed, which is high for me.). After all, they ARE indoors, under the covers, in warm clothes. When I checked my thermostat yesterday morning to find out why it was so cold, and jack the heat up, it said it was 61 degrees. That’s ok for a short period of time in triple digit temperatures, but it’s like 26 degrees outside, and my internal thermostat says it’s 57. I WISH it felt like 57 degrees, but it doesn’t. It feels like frost bite is about to set it! Of course, I turned it up and the sense I had a week ago that a part was going to die on me came to life when it didn’t click on. Turning all the power off and turning everything back on didn’t help either, so that meant asking for help.
The fuses were checked and replaced. That’s a good place to start if you are relatively clueless about your HVAC system, which I absolutely am. Unfortunately, it was not the cure-all I thought, and prayed, it would be. I have a local company coming in the early afternoon to get this fucker up and running again. I am pretty sure I know what it is, and I am praying it’s an easy fix, as it was two and a half years ago in the middle of one of the hottest summers. That was my first lesson as to how these things work and it was interesting to hear the technician tell me that the part I needed is one he replaces around here “very often” because my electric company limits the amount of power each home gets during extreme temperatures. It makes sense, but having to replace it once every 2-3 years adds up. This coming year, I am going to learn how to do some of these things for myself. It’s certainly cheaper if you don’t have to call someone out to fix something. I am also going to find a quality handyman because I am utterly useless when it comes to things like electric wiring, plumbing, and fixing things I already know I am not qualified to fix.
Extreme temperatures and I have never done well. Summers have always killed me (even as a child), but with Fibromyalgia, as I get older, it hurts so much more to endure the extremes. I have several layers of clothing on and they will remain snug until the heat goes back on. Pray for me.
If you saw the insane amount of blankets on my bed and wrapped around me, you’d think this part Siberian chick was actually IN Siberia. If I could find earmuffs right now, I’d be wearing them with absolutely no shame.
If someone passes the freezer, kindly hand me the Svedka. Thank you.
UPDATE: It was 51 degrees inside when I woke up this morning. It’s 20 degrees outside and will eventually reach into minus temperatures. Plus, a good 4 inches of snow and minus temps are expected here Thursday. UHHHH! When everything is good, I am thawing out in hot water until I use all of it up.