This is scary as all get out. I don’t believe I’ve taken an antibiotic in about five years, but I also believe in letting my body heal itself, even if that means I’m sick for a few extra days. Knowing your body really well will help you avoid being on medication unless you truly need it, so listen and remember that cold, flu, & virus season is never truly gone. Do whatever you can to keep you & yours from getting sick.
Moreover, what the fuck is everyone doing pumping antibiotics into animals?! And they wonder why this shit happens?! It’s enough to make me sick to my stomach. In fact, I just lost my appetite.
This must be “Fuck with Lisa” month because way too many people are using me like target practice and I don’t appreciate it. Yesterday I felt like I was bleeding to death and no one cared to see the wounds, or cared that they were inflicting them. Today I feel like I can conquer the world, so conquer I shall. Just stay out of my way, I own weapons and I’m not afraid to use them. My greatest weapon that is often ignored is that I am a LOT smarter than I let on. Don’t take that for something it isn’t either.
I had a horrible day yesterday, which was capped off with some news that I expected, but that still floored, offended, and hurt me. I am appalled at the level of unprofessionalism some people put forth in their chosen fields. I am glad I always maintain my dignity and self-respect, not just as a person, but in my work. I will be filing a complaint against the vile bitch in question, but if I ever hear her voice in a public place, I will not be held accountable for my actions. Some people just don’t get that you don’t say certain things to people, no matter what. I held my tongue, which is a huge accomplishment for me, but I also know that keeping my mouth shut doesn’t mean I am weak and it doesn’t mean someone else has won. It means I’ve held on to a piece of myself, and that I’ve maintained my core beliefs and values.
So this morning, I needed this blast of inspiration that Gavin DeGraw sings so impeccably, it damn near moves me to tears.
“The image that comes to mind is a boxing ring. There are times when…you just want that bell to ring, but you’re the one who’s losing. The one who’s winning doesn’t have that feeling. Do you have the energy and strength to face life? Life can ask more of you than you are willing to give. And then you say, ‘Life is not something that should have been. I’m not going to play the game. I’m going to meditate. I’m going to call “out”.’
There are three positions possible. One is the up-to-it, and facing the game and playing through. The second is saying, Absolutely not. I don’t want to stay in this dogfight. That’s the absolute out. The third position is the one that says, This is mixed of good and evil. I’m on the side of the good. I accept the world with corrections. And may, the world, be the way I like it. And it’s good for me and my friends. There are only the three positions.” ―Joseph Campbell